Now I know!

I now know why they sedate you when they retrieve the eggs!

I've been home from the clinic for about 90 minutes. The procedure went well. I didn't really know what to expect but it was different than what I was expected. It was in the operating room. The doctor, nurse, anesthesiologist, and radiology tech were in the room with me. My entire body shook when they stuck the needle into the cyst. There was a lot of cramping. I cannot imagine having to do that for EACH egg! Imagine 15, 20, or even 30 pokes with a NEEDLE at your ovaries! Geez!

A few weeks ago at church, the sermon was based on Psalm 1:1-3: 1. Blessed is the man who does not walk in the counsel of the wicked or stand in the way of sinners or sit in the seat of mockers. 2. But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on his law he meditates day and night. 3. He is like a tree planted by streams of water, which yields its fruit in seasons and whose leaf does not wither. Whatever he does prospers. After reading that, Pastor Dude asked the congregation what kind of life we thought this meant. I immediately thought fulfilled. Resting in the realization that my Lord is with me always makes me feel fulfilled. Having the friends and family that I do makes me feel fulfilled. But what isn't this enough sometimes? I think we get in our own ways. It is easy to wallow in self pity or to become excited about those things that really don't matter.

At the end of the service, we sang "It is well with my soul". Scarlett provided a brief history of the songwriter and I actually did some additional research on him. The songwriter, Horatio Spafford, suffered many loses through out his life. His only son died at age four in 1871. During the Great Chicago Fire, he lost most of his possessions and money. In 1873, his family planned a trip to Europe. He sent his wife and four daugters ahead of him. The ship they were traveling on was hit and sank quickly killing all four daughters. His wife sent a telegram saying, "Saved alone."

This version of the song is sung by Christ Rice, one of my favorite Christian singers, In the grand scheme of things, what David and I have been through in the last few days is nothing compared to losing all of our children in a span of 2 years. Many have suffered before us. Many will suffer after us. Resting in the arms of Jesus is the only glimpse of hope that we can rely on. It is through Him that we will have a fulfilled life.

Prayers for a fulfilled life for each and every one of you....

It is will with my soul!